12.50am
trying to get some blogging inspiration.
i should really be studying
but my motor's jus not starting... post-rag-syndrome?
at least lectures are now making sense to me, rather than being sessions for me to blow air con or reading off the back of my eyelids.
life has sorta settled down into a routine of sorts: lectures, tutorials, lunch, more lectures, more tutorials, back to RH for tea/dinner, fussball, stone in room/touch rugby training/ road race training...
but somethings missing
wrong
alot of things are missing.
Missing:
- lee jiaxing
- elaine hee yee ling
- rabbit tan chuan seng
- khin khin htwet
- patrick lin ngai lung
- Sin Jin
hall life without that usual big gang of people jus seems so dull, so monotonous... exactly 1 yr ago, we'll be at the RH concert bash jus making a fool out of a particular guy L_W_ _ NCE, dancing the night away, drinking flaming mambos, tequila shots, pops, n jus being wild.
1 yr on... its the same concert bash, abeit diff cast n diff ppl.
but i'm not at the bash. it jus feels empty ba without these crazy ppl tog
we all move on n carry on wif out hectic lives, we hv to keep looking forward.
let everything take its natural course, dun push it too hard?take ur time, give her space.mai kan cheong???-ghimz out
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like i've told yushan n others,
uni life is meant to be fun, enriching
i wan to PLAY, play not int he negative sense of the work, i want to play when i work, play when i interact, play when i'm doing things wif good company.
i want everything in university to be enjoyable, to play and to participate n make good of everything that comes my way.
perhaps i'm stressing myself out for no reason, perhaps i'm freaking out at the slightest touch.
perhaps we all need a little time for ourselves.
perhaps i've lost touch with the ghim of last yr, the smiley, cheery guy.
traces of that ghim is still in me, i jus need to find it back.
with her around, my life is happy.to all my frens, sorry if u hv been ghim-ed in one way or another, u all are equally important n treasured by me, this i swear.
sorry mys ec sch buddies tt i've left u guys out of my life for the past 2 months, it sucked, i really wanna meet up every weekend at coffee club n chill until 3am with u guys...
to my rag comm, i love u wonderful ppl.
ghim will be back in 1 week's time
he will feel refreshed
he will realise that there is no need to frown
he will know that every smile he makes brighten up the day of another
he will understand that even if times are down, a true person can still smile and remain optimistic
he will regain his optimism and happiness.
he will embrace uni n life like he did 1 yr ago.
ghim will be back.
trust me :)
ghimz out.
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5 more days to rag day...
good luck ppl.
ghimz, jia you....
ghimz out.
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