hmmm, a long hiatus from blogging man... abt 9 days, haha, lotsa things happened, wanted to blog n photo blog, but then didnt' find the time to do so, now dun really feel like posting all of them, another time perhaps? haha anyway had been thinking things through recently.i guess, for one to be really happy, should be enjoying each day (DUH!!!)but seriously by enjoying, i guess its harder to achieve it than to jus say it out, sure, we can say we enjoyed today, or it was an ok day, but did we live through it being happy??? i know for sure that some of the days over the past 2 weeks i've lived through it miserably, it stinks, such a feeling stinks totally, its jus not the way i would or should. the talks abt all the problems, the eventually "enlightenment" and the recognition of the broad wide world out there, leaves little for me to feel upset about. Nothing should put us down, not even disgusting physics test papers... nope, not even them. at this point, like to apologise to patrick elaine chuan seng khin sin jin n jia xing, i jus literally broke that nite. it was jus too much to bear for the moment, hope dun take it to heart ;)yeah, nobody's gonna stop to pick us up, nobody can stay that way for a long time, its not good for health, there're gonna be the frens, the family that stands by you in times of crisis, but they're there to help us get up and moving again, not there to jus hv a shoulder to cry on, to pour out the troubles over and over again. and refusing to move on. we will all hv the moments when we're totally down, deep in the shit that we build ourselves or we were thrown into. but only we can choose when we wanna crawl out of that hole... and if we are determined, no matter how hard it may be, it's possible. maybe i'm decieving myself? giving myself the false sense of new life when i'm still trying to crawl out of the hole? but nevertheless, the more important thing is i'm feeling positive for now, isn't that the most important point? feels good to be ghim again. ghimz out. nitez
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