Sunday, August 22, 2004

what motivates somebody to take up something, learn a new course, pursue a objective?
what sparks our "drive" to do that thing?
what gives us the strength to actually shrug of all the boredom, all the stress, all the long hours n late nights, n all the unexplainable misfortunes and focus on the job at hand to finish up the job?

i need purpose that i can fervently pursue n ignore all the cloud that's bluring up my vision in front of me. the drive is dying down n the urge to get back to civilian life is becoming stronger n stronger. the daily admin, the daily works, the frequent outfields... has it become more of a dread than fun??? i dunno. but my source of motivation must be found again... fast... things will never always be nice n rosy... we all need our sense of purpose to pull off a big stunt or to achieve a long term goal...

that is determination.

i need to find mine.

209...

oh well, jus another week of outfield training, gonna be tough,,, but will get it over with... wish me luck...

ghimz posted at 7:52 PM
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